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Wednesday
Jan072009

On Being Belinda

It was probably a dreary afternoon  ... I was probably PMSing... and I definitely wasn't in the mood to pleasantly co-exist with humans that day.  I was walking with my head down - trying my hardest to avoid eye contact with anyone... even the dogs.  I walked in my office building, and I saw a cute little lady stuffing the mailboxes, bopping her head to the tunes in her ipod.  I was transfixed for a second, and slightly envious - as she seemed so joyful in that moment.  And I sooooo wasn't.  I tried to look away before she caught me in my gaze - but to no avail.  She took out one of her ear buds, and gave me the biggest smile, followed by the most friendly "Hey Girl! How are you?" I looked behind me, because I knew she couldn't be talking to me - I was purposely uber unapproachable that day.  But indeed she was speaking to me.  I couldn't help but smile - and return the greeting.  That changed my whole day. Since then, I have come to know the cute lady at the mailboxes as Miss Belinda, the United States Postal Service's finest.  And everyday (it never fails), she greets me with the warmest greeting.  I decided the other day, that I needed to find out what made her so happy all the time... I figured maybe if I was really charming, she would share her happy pills with me.  I would even buy them from her. So naturally - my first question to her was "how in the world are you so happy...all the time?"  She told me that on her 8th birthday, instead of opening birthday gifts, she was mourning the death of her mother ... and while a very sad time in her life - she truly feels that her mother passed her joy on to her.  It would have been so easy to give up right then, at the young age of 8.  But Miss Belinda explained that her mother's spirit lives inside her, and in turn, makes her a naturally joyous person.  Suffice to say - there were no secret happy pills that she popped every morning.  Her pills come in the form of staying grounded in her faith, and thriving on making people laugh.  Great for her... sucks for me. Everyday, she strives to pass that same joy onto her two girls, ages 5 and 3.  Feeling that motherhood was her God-given purpose, there isn't much that brings Miss Belinda to a low point.  While she's not thrilled at the economy or the anxiety that comes along with providing for her family, this San Antonio native is just happy to be alive.  So happy, that when someone responds to her toothy greeting with a less than positive response - she responds back "You livin' aint you?" True indeed Miss Belinda - you will make anyone think twice about not being appreiciative of life... even for a second.  It was truly a pleasure to sit down with this lady, and hear about her genuine joy.  It's such a rare find... and a true treasure. Inspired by the clean slate of the new year and the notion of starting fresh... and of course - the powerful unspiration that is Miss Belinda - I am on a mission to detox from my manufactured happiness... and join the movement of a natural high...
Wednesday
Dec242008

Paying it Forward

The whole concept of Paying it Forward is not only profound, but its a selfless notion that has a viral effect.  Imagine that - in our country... being able to say selfless, profound and viral in one sentence?  Perhaps my lack of faith in our society makes me out to sound like a cynic - but what can I say?  Watching the nightly news doesn't exactly make me jump for joy at the pure tom-foolery that's going on out there. Anyway, back to the point... the term originally manifested, and technically refers to the idea of a creditor who offers the debtor the option of "paying" the debt forward by lending it to a third person instead of paying it back to the original creditor. But the movie "Pay it Forward" introduced another meaning (or at least that's when I heard about it) -- as random acts of kindness. All this to say... I was at the bank the today (well it's 1 AM - so yesterday), and this police man / security guard opened the door for me.  Pretty common right? Not so interesting.  Well get this -- he told me to "believe in myself that I will do amazing things today."  Mind you - I have never talked to this man in my life, yet today was the day that I was making a big... job changing type of presentation... Imagine that.  So in paying it forward - I plan to give some random advice to a random person, and cross my fingers that it's relevant.  I guess it would suck if I said - "give your cat a hug today" - and the woman bursts into tears because her cat died two weeks ago... ~sigh~
Sunday
Dec072008

Randomly Paused...

You ever feel like you need to just press pause on... well... everything?!  Perhaps a few moments, to take a few fresh breaths, maybe steal a quick nap, and eat... leisurely.  Then, you can un-pause, and the world didn't even know you were gone.  What a novel concept. I often wonder how the world would be affected, if at all, if I took a 2 week break.  I didn't tell anyone where I was going (just that I was going...).  I didn't say when I would be back, I didn't reply to emails, phone calls, or text messages.  I didn't use my credit card.... just cash - so no one could find me.  How would the world be affected?  Would the world be affected? Would I be missed?  Would someone look for me?  Would things fall apart?  Or would things stay the same? Do I really want to know? Hmmm, a new notion - I like the concept of "Pause" for my business.... thinking..... thinking.... Stay tuned.
Thursday
Nov202008

10 Posts Away ... Let the Countdown Begin

Imagine that.  I am ten posts away from my 100th post... feels more like 1000, but whatever.  Maybe I should throw a party? Or maybe, I should unveil some super big secret at post #100.  Thoughts? At any rate, as I think back to what made me want to blog, I chuckle.  Several years back, my boss decided to birth a corporate social media company - ListenShare.  At the time, I was like 'social what'?  I had a MySpace profile - but I didn't really even care for that.  So as he started to grow his business, I figured that I should probably embrace what it is we were selling.  I didn't do it because I wanted to, I did it because I wanted to be a good little, self-motivated employee (Ok, maybe I was trying to kiss ass a bit, but so?!  Like you've never done it!!).  Anyhoo -- I set up a blog... and loved it.  Rather... I loved the concept.  I wrote two posts and took a break... a break that was 1.5 years. A lot happened in that year and a half, and let's just say - my writers block didn't help the situation.   In Spring of last year, I came back to my blog... and haven't stopped writing since.  I am thinking about taking on a different tone in the next 100 posts, maybe spice it up a bit -- make readers shift in their seat due to the inexplicable pang of captivating awkwardness found from my writing... or.... maybe not. Let the countdown begin...
Wednesday
Nov192008

The Human Pee Effect

I know - sounds disgusting right? Well hear me out. So this morning, my boyfriend woke up... got out of bed only to step in a cold little puddle, left by the other boy in my life, my pup. Side note: Prior to hopping out of bed, we were wondering why my dog chose to sleep under the bed last night, I figured it was because he was cold-- it all became clear a few moments later. I mentioned to my human boy - that Alex, my doggie boy, was just marking his territory, and was basically trying to send a message. It his nature. This of course, sparked an interesting conversation. Without getting into detail, we started to ponder a world where humans went around peeing on things they deemed theirs. The last seat on a bus, an attractive man/woman, the last slice of pizza.... you get the point. While it would probably have a slightly adverse effect in the human world, than it does in the doggie world, it made for a stimulating conversation, over Aquafresh, flat irons, and face wash. I would guess that the term "pissing contest" came from this notion of "territory," brought to us by man's best friend. The Urban Dictionary defines it as: Two or more parties simply attempting to out-do one another, not for the sake of truly believing in their cause, but just to win in order to gain some kind of power, honour, or reward of some kind.. All that to say - in my mission to find a location for my business, the Pee Effect is metaphorically taking shape. I am truly about to roll up my sleeves, and get down and dirty with this process, in an effort to get what I deem to be mine. But not just for the sake of saying I did it, but because I truly believe in my passion, and finally feel like i'm on the right path. While I might not go pulling down my underpants and pee on a Realtor, or a commercial loft I see in my desired location -- I will have to claim it... and follow my own mantra of seizing the moment.